i m back ! hehe ...
this month, so many things happen. happy yet sad. kind of hard to explain too or rather doesnt wan to post it out. haha
anyway.. made loads of progress in my proj, which i m happy about. but to sum it all up, its could take 4 days to reach the progress i m in now. honestly. haha.

some weird things you might take it hard to believe. i had, finally, clean my room, computer files and my keyboard. for a lazy person like me, its once in a blue moon. well the keyboard took me lik 2hrs juz to get it clean. clean it inside out haha. amazing har and its very clean. And i started to read a book. haha.

sadly my classmate juz got PHD(poly half-way drop-out). damn we miss him so much. so much fun being with him. he is the best disfunctional person i ever met and we all crap so much. feel so different without him. is the same irritating situation when i was drawing in the lecture room while the lecturing is busy teaching and suddenly when i need to edit the drawing, I CANT FICHING FIND MY ERASER! you know those kind of feelin? guess not, but you could sense how crap we are, dont you? hehe

now i m still confused about some stuff. one thing i hate about my life is that u definitely have to choose a path. both hard to journey. right now i m juz stuck at the front of a split road. still thinkin tho. many times i have believed the path that i chose will be the right one, but it always turn out to be the wrong one. wad to do? backtrack will be useless, so i just learn to live with it.

sometimes i wonder, being nice or being a bastard. being nice, you will sacrifice happiness, being a bastard you always be happy. i cant change being nice lol. but i dunno how true this will be. assumption are lik hypothesis, you need to try so it may one day be a thoery. still i cant change being nice and tats juz me. haha.

car or bike? which license shud i be goin for? hmmm still thinkin haha. but jobless at the moment. how can one get rich in such a short time? let me think. i was with my fren and they were talking about business. starting your own business. so my fren read some books, which he told us about 5 ways to get rich. here goes the 5 ways...

1-> you are born with a silver spoon(i wish!)

2-> married some one rich(nah marriage are saved for som one special)

3-> rob a bank(under desperation, i might attempt this LOL, could be fun)

4-> start your own business (trying)

5-> forgot lol

but the truth is any of this 5 ways i cant acheive at the moment. haha. its acutally quite true tat our parents want us to study so we can have a secure job in the future. but do you know tat we will always be workin for ppl and might never get rich lik this. so the best way is to start your own business. its actually quite true, me and my frens are already plannin to do it, planning to start a business on our own and came to realise its isnt easy at all. all i can see, everything before the goal, are obstacles and obstacles and obstacles and obstacles. yeah and we trying to conquer it one by one. hope we make it. :)

-->xlazy @ 7:02:00 PM

haha next week is my holiday. 2 weeks of holiday. the only thing different from any other holiday is tat i decided to get my lazy ass to sch and work on my project with frens. someppl who know how i am will think i will never do it. hehe. dun worry i will. wad? dun believe? check me in sch. cannot find? call me. not there? lunch break/smoke break/bball/eh.. over slp. haha

anyway, this project is different from any other project tat i come accross. all my 3rd yr module are not examinable, meaning no exams. they are 3 modules tat are graded on this single proj. not lik previous 2 yrs. one project is graded for 1 module only. hmm sound lik dbms. ar nvm.

my proj? making a game. well the idea is not from me but i think is very interesting. i m not promoting my game here but i have tell u how confused i m when 2 different lecture tell our group on how to do the proj.

the start of our dicussion, we tot it must be 3D becos one of our module is teaching us 3D. not tat we cant do 2D and 2D was a lot simple and we tot we will fail doin 2D.

During lect A lesson he told us, if ur game is mend to be 2D den do 2D. so we was relief, and agreed on doin it 2D. when in lect B lesson he told us we must make 3D or we will fail. so we change on 3D.

the next lect A lesson he told us the same thing and he say "i'll never fail some one making a 2D game but it must show u really work hard." hmm no prob on tat. And so we were relief again. back to 2D.

den again lect B tell us must be in 3D. we stood confused lik almost 3weeks. ask A to dicuss wif B, they never do it. lect A die die want us to do 3D, another one say can make 2D and wont fail. tnk of it really wan to say nbcb. so tulan cum lan lan do 3D loh.

or better idea is tell lect A tat B wan us to 3D no matter wad, den tell B tat A say our game only can be make in 2D. and let them screw each other up haha.

really make me feel lik a ping pong ball zzz...

-->xlazy @ 5:00:00 PM

recently i been lazy so i didn't blog hehe.

so wad game is it abt. juz a game i tot among my 5 frens. well i promise i cant tell so i not telling u wad the game abt. its a serious matter but not abt gambling and not illegal. its thrilling but its for our future lol.

finally i done something good and fun for my brothers. damn when are we goin to come up with the name!

-->xlazy @ 2:11:00 PM

im never good at conversation, its a problem since way back, was few years back. past: got fooled by some gal while toking to her on the fone. talking to her was lik talking to the wall, the last chat, i ask her wad did i say juz now and she could not ans.

hurt. was i? yes if it was the past. now? i dun really noe. something familiar happen, but its not fully the same situation. juz struck by the feeling i had in the past. wad i did to it? walk a way and smoke a few cigarettes.

sometimes i feel nobody wan to hear wad i say, i hide everything inside of me, i runaway. sometimes i was never given a chance. so i have to find my own chance instead. pain? a few cigarette will kill the pain. to me? of cos it will. sometimes i feel i tok to myself more den anyone else. sometimes i feel i could smoke away my pain den smile and those problems will sink rite down. nobody to tok to, result? cigarette being my best fren for me. always there when i need them.

sadness and happiness exist in the past, and it will exist in the future. wad happen in the past we cannot change, wad happen in the future we cant predict. wad is in the past, we must learn. wad is in the future, we will use wad we have learn and not repeat the same mistake.

to me life is a lik a huge QnA. questions come in to the mind everytime and i have to search for answers. question without answer will end up being replace by asumptions and asumptions lead me to confusions. only when the answer is found den i will not be confused.

i fallen to the ground so many times and each time i fall i pick myself up, stand up and conitnue to walk foward. i dun really understand why i have the will to live but theres always something telling me live on. all i can say is? life is simple, the only thing hard is living it.

im not lik some one that wants my frens to pity me or worry abt me. i dun care how i feel sometimes. if i see my frens upset abt me it could only mean that i failed them. writing this post is so unlike me. when u hide to much porblems insde of you, its gonna explode 1 day.

-->xlazy @ 1:05:00 AM

i got sick. Soar throat + dIzziness + headaChe.

reason to soar throat - drank durian milkshake + french fries while chilling with my frens at can cafe @ bugis last saturday nite 1am..

reason to headache - thinkin of too much things and a brand name.

reason to dizziness - clueless.. it came all of a sudden.

cant rest well this few days. ate my medicine and got myself into slp at 1am. but wake up at 5am. the medicine supposed to make me feel sleepy. yeah i sure feel sleepy, a few yawns, eyelids was fallin towards gravity but when the time comes to 1-2am, guess wad ? my eyelids open wide and i dun feel tired anymore.

reason might be... i change my slping clock in my body and i m use to being nortunal lol. well sometimes it does feel lik afternoon to me when its 1am. hehehe. walking to school, i face yet a problem. i feel very dizzy this few days. while walking, i look down to my shoe den when i rise my head to look forward i feel lik i was goin to lose my balance, sometimes i cant walk staight lol. dun worry i m very gd in managing balance and breakin fall XD. i'm not nicknamed as "teck ghee cc crash dummy" for nothing XD.

wanst a gd start for this semester.feel weird to go to sch, hardly anyone i know. because i was seperated from my clss as im needing to repeat two year2 module T_T. make some new frens anyway so i guess its normal now.

chat with my old clss mates over the msn. miss those old days when we was having so much fun XD. and som1 reminded me abt the clss t shirt. luckily i did not print our tshirt yet. cos i pick up some skills and ideas.. so i might come up with a better design then the old one.

guess i shud take a nap. hope i feel better lol. hate the feelin of dizziness.

-->xlazy @ 1:44:00 PM

Finally project is over for lik 1 month ago XD...
and another 1 month i have been wandering around wif frens during holiday

Only made this blogskin this few days. Got too busy with game the past month hehe.
Lost a few links to my frens blog webbies.. hope u guys can give me again and i m sorry i lost them T_T...
I took out my gallery too.

well look at the time now ... i m off to bed, tml lesson at 9AM haha.
Tho i dun feel lik.. but i must >.<
just the same old me, trying to change
and hopefully i can learn wad i have lost and find that something which is missing....

-->xlazy @ 3:17:00 AM

fuck it.. thinkin abt the title will stress me more.
currently doin project at my fren hse, still theres is more task waitin for me to compete. a new blogspot skin and the class tshirt design.

even i haf the design ideas, i canot produce 100% of wad i expected. this is why it took me so long to do my project team logo and blogskin and class tshirt desgin. design without ideas is even worse.

project is still the same lik last semester. my pro leader the same and doin another difficult project. well my job is simple, but tedious. gotta work more then 12 hrs no time for other things. T_T only enjoy my time during last week holiday haha. when my leader fly back to veitnam.

so much to do, it seems endless. just want to finish this semester as fast as possible, next semester still nid to due with 2 repeat module. sad. i not sure whether i would survive for this semester oso. just got no mood to study. i could be lik my fren, quit his poly life. but there is just a something tat tellin me to just finish poly. another reason is my parent. how could i tell them and if i would they wont allow. aleast get a cert, this is wad i concent.

too much to think about sometimes. just missing someone. didnt how to handle it tho. i bad at this anyway. haha. haiz... im off to do wad i must. PROJECT la. ;p

-->xlazy @ 11:01:00 PM